The silence in the office is deafening. For a good couple of days, it was an awkward, uncomfortable silence that I could not seem to bear. But now that I’m into my 3rd month of working in that beautiful office.. I am surprised that I’m liking the much-needed peace and quiet.. (in fact, I’m liking it a lot!). I am not exaggerating when I say that the only sounds we hear are our fast fingers tinkering away at the keyboard.. or the relentless clicking of the mouse (frantically trying to move some walls and ceilings using our autocadd programs).. the sporadic phone calls from clients, architects & suppliers, and the occasional “RRAAAJ” (our office teaboy being called by several Bosses). Oh.. and from to time, some screams from one boss to another. But nobody really minds them.. It’s actually part of their SCOPE OF WORK. We just had to learn how to deal with it. And I must say that we’re getting better at pretending not to hear their arguments. The tagalog phrase “Trabaho lang, walang personalan” takes on a whole new meaning now.
But aside from these seasonal strife, our workplace is still considered a fairly quiet one for most parts of the day.. And come to think of it.. it is through that silence that I can create all those wonderful and the not-so-wonderful designs (depending on the mood and the time of the day).
It is through that silence that I can literally listen to my body as my tummy gurgles to tell me that I am hungry.
It is through that silence that I can listen to my inner spirit telling me to take work easy.. and to enjoy everything that life brings me (whether be it good or bad)..
It is through that silence that I get to control my moods and my temper plus some bouts of irritation everytime something or someone (everybody knows who that is) gets in my nerves.
It is through that silence that I get to de-stress when the client… as well as the boss (actually, the “non-boss” who acts like a boss)… and not to mention, the officemates who “seasonally” breathe down my neck.
It is through that silence that I get to realize and admit my faults and mistakes as a designer. As well as my flaws as a person..
On that note, it is through that silence that I could easily catch myself from thinking negative thoughts.. from spiraling down (after thoughts of my “being no-good” start to creep in)… and for reminding myself that I should not be too hard on myself.
It is through that silence that makes me admit that I’ve still got sooo much to learn about sooo many things (work or non-work related).
It is through that silence that I appreciate my work as a designer... Telling myself how lucky I am to be where I am right now.
In the same breath, it is through that silence that I get to hear the chismis in the other room (no matter how soft their whispers are).. haha.
And it is through that silence that I get to muster all the energy to be able to talk incessantly right after work.. Through the evening.. And onto the stillness of the night…And right through the next morning while preparing breakfast..
But the moment we step into our own sacred creative spaces at 8-ish, silence begins once again. It is through that silence that I get to listen to my inner voice telling me how happy it is to be here and now.
Took some time to get used to this daily retreat into myself.. But my soul seems to be at home.
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